Date : Saturday, March 20, 2010
Time : 3/20/2010 10:19:00 AM
Title : Stuck!!

Oh well, i'm stuck at home. I might as well take the opportunity to put post here. Haven't been updating for a while.. Sometimes just too tired to even switch on the wi-fi..

Well, supposed to have tuition today, but who knows of all days, my mom chose this day to bring out my keys accidentally. Now I cant go for tuition. Haiz. It's a good thing though. Will be free today, completing all my holiday homeworks -.- The bad things is that I have to go to amk for the make up lesson.. I don wanna go there.. The place is too cramped and my primary school friend is also there.. Dont wanna let her see me!! ROAR!!! Was going to have tuition test. Wanted to just do it and get over with it asap. Now with no keys, I cant go! T.T

So quickly, the March holidays are gonna end. No more fun :( and perhaps its time to start pushing myself harder. Also, it's time to rush. I'm not sure if I can do it, but i'll try :) I have nothing much to post actually. So I guess i'll just end here and start finding some useful things to do :D

Goodbyes. Takecares.

Cheryl.
20.03.10 (Saturday)

** Hope mom quickly returns my call. I need the keys. Off to do my holiday assignments now! :B

Date : Thursday, March 11, 2010
Time : 3/11/2010 08:33:00 PM
Title : *YAWNS* Tired.

Havent been sleeping well lately. I have been crying and getting agitated over trivial matters. I know that it's not PMS because it's not coming so soon yet. I just feel really tired and stressed up i guess. Perhaps it's because of the common tests results and being affected by what evil teachers say. Another possibility could be because of my secondary two cadets in NPCC. I really can get really fed up because of them. I just want to leave this CCA and school as soon as possible. I cannot take the stress anymore.

I received two biology tests results yesterday. Was devastated because of them. Why do i just keep failing the tests by half a mark? I guess i did read through and study a little, but perhaps it is just not enough. Hearing the boys in my class say "Cheryl sure fail one." was rather disappointing. Do i really leave such an impression of myself on my classmates? Haiz :( The GREAT teacher made me run three rounds around the quadrangle. I got all upset and fucked up. I kept quiet during NPCC. The way they did their drills were unacceptable. After so many months of training with them, they gave us this shit. I expected alot more from them. Therefore, i could not take it in the end, and shouted at them.

Today had POP rehearsal. Felt like we wasted time. The whole parade was mostly on the group ICs and commanders. The rest just stood there like idiots and only marched and recited the pledge. Now i know. The pets will always lead and the others will always be left out. I see. Had 2 tests today. By right there were supposed to be three. Geography test was cancelled because the teacher went for a meeting. I wrote about "Temptation" for English writing test, For chinese, we were allowed to bring home the book to complete it.

Haiz. Didnt sleep in peace for the past two to three days or so. Kept yawning in class today, especially during math lessons. They get get REAL boring :X I yawned over 20 times in two periods if im not wrong. SO SO SO tired... Shall end here and try to go to bed early.

Goodnight. Goodbyes. Takecares.


Cheryl.
11.03.10 (Thursday)

** NPCC staff sergeant promotion test tomorrow. Wish all sergeants secondary 4 cadets all the best! There's one more curiousity of mine. Do miracles exist? If they do, i just wished i could do well in my studies without studying :\ but everyone just knows that it is impossible. Haiz. AND The principal's words motivated me. I shall let go of my anger to the teachers and the school and concentrate on my studies. There is not much time left. I will do well and get out of the school A.S.A.P!!!

Date : Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Time : 3/09/2010 07:29:00 PM
Title : Harsh day.

Haiz! Had a bad day today T.T Cried. Took back my Elective Geography paper today. 17/25. Shit. It didnt pull up my combined humanities. I failed by 4 marks. I actually begged the teacher to help me look out for another 2 marks so that she could help me pass my overall combined humanities. Surprisingly, she helped others but couldnt even be bothered to take a look at my paper to check. What's this? Why are teachers like that nowadays?


Another problem that happened today was that my Biology teacher showed us a confimation slip of our Biology common test. I didnt fail my common test. Yet, he added all the marks of the previous class tests that we took and my results came to a total of 49/100. Just 1 mark to pass and when i went to look for him and asked him "I failed by 1 mark." I actually wanted to ask him for the one mark, but before i could say anything, he said " Then how? Are you going to drop Biology? I see that you have not been coping well." I told him " NO, i have already dropped Chemistry." And guess what was his bloody reply? He exclaimed "Then just drop another subject!". I was so devastated that i cried on the spot. He just walked away _l_ WHAT THE FUCK. He was once well-respected by me, but i swear that i am never ever going to show him my respect again for he doesnt deserve even a single shit of it! I thought he was a nice teacher, but today, i finally see his true ugly colours. His pets will be just like him!!!


I really need a shoulder to cry on. Everytime his words flash in my mind, i would start to tear. Haiz. I am going to be so dead when my mom comes home today T.T Really is worrying! I feel sorry to my mom that i have let her down totally. I hope she doesnt feel that she has given birth to a complete failure :'(


Anyway, had PE today. Phew, Miss Aw didnt take our class today. Mr Fat Seah did.. Had circuit training. Really sticky, sweaty and tiring.. Well, didnt go Mac with Weiteng after school today. She went pak tor :P So came home early today. Posted everywhere about that teacher. Teachers nowadays really have no brains when they talk. They have no idea how much the words they said have hurt their students. I am starting to hate school alot more. I don feel like contributing a fuck to the school anymore. Haiz! Shall end my unhappy journey here.


Byebyes. Takecares. Goodnight.


Cheryl.
09.03.10 (Tuesday)


** Really hope tomorrow will be a "brand new day". I really dont know how to face those brainless teachers in school anymore. I hate them to the core :(

Date : Friday, March 5, 2010
Time : 3/05/2010 11:19:00 PM
Title : End of common tests = Relieved!

Gosh! It's end of the 5 day thing - Common Test. More to come man! Heard from Mdm Kaur that the school has decided to hold a test for every subject every Mondays and Fridays. What the heck?! We're already busy enough and this comes? Aww, shucks. Good thing is that, we're gonna step down from our CCA soon! YES! I do not have to see that person's face anymore! Pissed off. Uh, whatever.

Anyway, had Physics common test today AND i realised that i actually missed out the topic on "Sound" which was last minute added to the common test! Oh god, Im seriously gonna flunk the Physics paper. URGH. Hmm, my results so far has not been really good. Im keeping my fingers crossed that i would get 19 and above for Elective Geography so that i can pass my combined humanities. I did real badly for my Social studies common test. 6/25. I cant believe this. Haiz. For Amath, it's expected that i would fail it and i did, almost passed though, but a fail is a fail. There's nothing i can do :\ For Emath, I could not remember how to complete the first 3 questions coz it's last year's work and I stupidly didnt revise for it. And for the third question, my "WONDERFUL" math teacher commented on my paper: "I dont understand what you are trying to find. Please work harder. Everyone can solve this question except you!" DARN IT. What's her problem?? Did i even offend her? Oh please LCF, you are unlucky in a way that me, as one of your most unfavourable student, has scored 25/35 for the paper. Fine. I know it was an easy paper, BUT AT LEAST I IMRPOVED.

Those words LCF commented  "Everyone can solve this question except you!", has hurt my feelings. Dont you think that being as a teacher, giving such comments is really mean? To err is human right? Just because she thinks she is good at math, she can criticize others? Well, LCF, after my Olevels, i am sure to return to Bendemeer Seconday to inform the school about YOU. Meanie!

For English, my class had the worst results of the 3 express classes. Half of my class actually failed the paper. I was lucky in a sense that i scored 30/50 and was the highest in class. I dropped Chemistry and hence did not take the Chemistry paper. Heard quite a number did badly and were intending to drop as well. For Biology, I managed to pass and scored 19.5/30 for it. Thank God! :D

Not sure how to account to my mother this way. It's gonna be very terrible as i am expecting a cold war between me and my mom again. Haiz! Had CCA today. We, the Sec4s, finally managed to have drills again! Yay! I havent touched the rifles in ages! :D

It's getting late. Tired. Havent been sleeping well these few days. Shall go to bed now. Goodnights. Goodbyes. Take cares.

Cheryl.
05.03.10 (Friday)

** Cheer up Weiteng! Dont bother about stupid teachers like LCF and WHL. Study hard, work hard, play hard! :D Let's work together! See you this Sunday! Study~