Date : Saturday, August 29, 2009
Time : 8/29/2009 11:27:00 PM
Title : BLAHBLAHBLEH~

Had Soduku Challenge yesterday at SengKang Sec... Got 1st.. from the back.. xD Embarrassing! LOL. Came home at about 7 then had dinner at Pizza Hut. I ate Prawn Aglio Olio. Tasted horrbile man! Seriously, i'll never eat it again. Sigh. Bad dinner. Luckily had LongJohnSilver with Weiteng before that :D

Yesterday also changed sitting plan in class. Now i sit so far away from him* & QY.. I miss him* and QY alot alot.. He* simply wont reply to my messages!!! Wth. T.T I feel like some idiot messaging him* everytime, awaiting for his* reply hopefully, but nothing! I just miss talking to him* so so so much! Sigh. WHy do we have to be seperated? WHY?? Urgh.

Anyway, today had racky for amazing race coming friday again.. Enjoyed myself quite abit & im glad i brought fun & laughter to the rest(: SMILES. Nothing much to comment.. Guess i'll sign off with a short post today then.

Byebyes. Goodnight. Takecares.

Lalalalala.
Cheryl.
29.08.09(Saturday)

** Gonna have X-country run at ECP this coming Monday. Boring. Teacher's day celebration uh. I hate running. Hope there's time to go baack to Primary school. But also, i want to go cycling wif them. He* asked me to join he* & his* buddies on monday to cycle. WEE.. But not sure if i can go. T.T Sigh.

*Nothing much, feeling speechless today. Just wanna say i miss you & i love you..

Date : Thursday, August 27, 2009
Time : 8/27/2009 09:17:00 PM
Title : Bad day!

I woke up in the morning & found myself almost late. I hadnt packed my school bag. I hadnt ironed my uniform. OH NO! It was a bad day anyway.. Sigh. Today had PE, played soft ball. Was quite fun.. Big Seah was like running & he sweated alot alot. LOL. After that had English writing test. Couldnt think of anything to write, so bombed a few nonsense down & passed up. Then had recess. Saw Audrey & people. Somehow, it didnt feel the same anymore. It just felt like we were strangers all over again.

I couldnt figure out the reason. Perhaps the funny bugs have gotten out of me. I cant joke anymore xD Sigh. After recess was Biology. Had test. Eeeee... Yeah, i felt bad.. After Biology was Math. Seriously, i hate Mrs Loh. All i can say is she despises me. Wtf. she's such a ... Forget it.

Had NPCC after that. That SASIKUMAR, he's a total jerk. Idiot. He acts as if he is the boss & shouts all day long. He doesnt get the facts right & start shouting at people. WHo does he think he is? He even said i had no brains! SUCKER. Please uh, i hope that jerk refelect on what he had done. He's the one without brains! Just because he cant get his Seargent rank as well, he thinks he can get it by doing all these? Hah! SASIKUMAR: WAIT LONG LONG! BRAINLESS ASS!! Sooner or later, he's gonna lose all his friends! IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!

Waste my time. Make my blood boil! Hell. After that, went home with Liling. Actually wanted to have Mac, but decided to buy fishball noodle from the Cafe Lobby at ToaPayoh interchange instead. TO ALL: DONT BUY FOOD FROM THERE. THE QUALITY OF THE FOOD SUCK & THE ATTITUDE OF THE PEOPLE SELLING IT IS WORSE! I threw away all the food i bought from there. If i werent wearing school uniform, i would have scolded that China bastard selling the food upside down!! Another sucker! Show me attitude. EAT SHIT LUH & GO BACK TO CHINA LUH IF YOU ARE SO UNHAPPY!!! I should have bought Mac... Regretted!

Urgh! I guess im gonna stop here then.. Feeling rather unhappy about today. Got mom to buy mac for me.. Sigh. Hope tomorrow will be a better day. Soduku challenge tomorrow. Sigh. Boring. Dono how to play-.- Well, then...

Byebyes. Takecares.

Lalalalalala.
Cheryl.
27.08.09(Thursday).

** Thanks uh Alex Chia for helping me fight for my rights with that SASIKUMAR. Sorry to make you got scolded by him. He's a total JERK, yeah? This month's not a good month for me.. I hope everything changes for the better soon.

* I miss you*. I couldnt get you* off my mind yesterday. You* just feel so important to me. When will i ever get your* response? Even if you* just tell me that you* feel -that way- a little or even a bit for me, i will be happy enough already.. I love you more and more each day♥

Date : Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Time : 8/26/2009 06:16:00 PM
Title : Happy day!

Oh yeah, today is a great day. Oh yeah oh yeah!! -.- Well, woohoo! This morning everything started like usual... Till after recess... Somehow, he* started to pull my chair & like in a way go close to him*. Honestly, my heart was like beating very fast when he* did that. I didnt dare look at him* in the eyes. I was afraid that i would like fall deeper in love with him* again. & i did. Why does this always happen?? When im ready to give up, he* just makes me love him* so much again.. I was like noticing him* all the time after that. O.M.G

I couldnt take my eyes off him*. I saw the him* "glowing". He* just looked so... charming.. Although he* isnt what you call "handsome", but i just feel that the charm inside of him* just attracts me so much.. There are many things i want to ask him*.. But im afraid that he* would start ignoring me again, just like the previous times. So i guess im gonna ask everything here. If he's* fated to see what i want to really ask, i hope he* does reply.. All i can hope for is for a miracle to happen..

*****, im gonna be direct. Have you ever felt the same way before? OmG. Just even for 1 hour? Or maybe 1 minute? Or perhaps 1 second? I really really want to know your answer... I really just cant let you go.. It was easy to fall in love with you... But it's not so to let you go. iloveyou~

I think im having curry from Old ChangKee for dinner. Not really hungry though.. LOL. Still owe my teachers alot of homework.. Gotta rush rush rush. But i choose to watch TV. That's my life(: Did badly for a few papers, especially all the 3 sciences & Amath. ANyway, im having Soduku challenge this Friday.. Boring x_x Hate soduku.. No choice. Think i shall sign off here then, nothing much to comment..

Byebyes. Takecares.

Lalalalala.
Cheryl.
26.08.09(Wednesday)
**Sigh, not much comments..

*Am i thinking too much? Everytime, i would just dream & wonder if we would really have to chance to be together & if we did, what would happen? It could all be impossible. But i just still love you♥

Date : Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Time : 8/25/2009 05:55:00 PM
Title : Efforts dont pay off.

I've been feeling rather upset lately. It all happened on Friday, after CCA. Sigh. I have never felt like how i felt that day. I was not too sure what went wrong exactly. All i knew was that i did not get my SEARGENT rank in NPCC.

Since months ago, i was told that i was a confirmed seargent. I put in so much time & effort in this stupid CCA, but i did not get anything in return. Hell. That OH gave me false hopes. Just because i dont tuck in my uniform during curriculum time, he doesnt want to grant me that rank. Yes, i can sense that everyone is laughing at me now. I shouldnt have ....... I 'm really tired. I had a big headache. All i wanted to do on Friday was to cry, cry my heart out. The more i cry, the more my head hurt.Urgh! I dont understand. What does not tucking in shirt during curriculumtime got to do with NPCC?

After that, i went to MacDonald with Audrey, Wei Teng & Liling. They watched me cry, looked at me cry. So embarrassing! I ate my food, tried to stop crying & laughed so that no one would worry. I went home after that. I felt so like crying.. My head really hurt. When i reachedhome, i showered, stared blankly into the television for a while & went back into my room soon after. I remembered, it was 9.49pm when i started to break down again. I cried, really badly, till about 11pm. My head really felt like exploding. My mother heard me sobbing from outside & sent me an sms. She comforted me. I was touched..

I struggled in bed for a few hours, but fell asleep not long after & never woke up till Saturday morning..

Saturday was fine, i woke up with a pair of swollen eyes. Then had breakfast & went to Labrador Park for some amazing race planning thing.. I tried my best to be happy.. Then ended at VivoCity in the evenning & met mom there. Window shopped & went home(: I definitely felt much better than Friday.

Sunday was also fine. Nothing much to comment about.

Today was good in the morning. But i felt a little upset after school. NPCC meeting was boring like SHIT. Bobo doesnt even know what he is talking about. The whole meeting was messy!!! I wasnt sure why, but after that i started ignoring people. I felt bad. Sorry to those who i ignored.. Really sorry guys.. Im not sure if you guys will get to see this.

Sigh.. What a day. Then went to Mac again, with Weiteng. I took random shots of myself & her. Looked quite nice. LOL. Guess i'll sign off here then. Going to watch TV, then do my Chinese homeworks.. Owed LZW alot alot!!!

Byebyes. Takecares.

Lalalalala.
Cheryl.
25.08.09(Tuesday)

** To Audrey: I want to realise how important you are to the people around you. No matter what's going on now, i hope you will face everything courageously. Let bygones be bygones. What's important in now & the future. Everyone cares for you. NEVER NEVER NEVER think bad about yourself. I hope you know what i mean. I pray hard for you that all these will get over soon & may God bless.

*I still cant get over him*. I dont know whatto say about him*. All i know is i still cant give up. T.T Hard to let go...

Date : Monday, August 17, 2009
Time : 8/17/2009 02:26:00 PM
Title : Disappointments, Regrets

Well well well... It's been ages since i last posted. I said i wanted to study for the common test last week. In the end, i wasted my time doing nothing, practically NOTHING. Just sitting there & grumble grumble grumble was all i could do. I just havent learnt my lesson. Hell. & when i do badly, i just cry. Stupid right? -.-


Sigh, i wasnt feeling well last night.. Had diarrhoea. Ran in & out of the toilet twice.. Woke up this morning at 4am to go toilet again. Boo!!!!!!!!! I hate the pain! So i didnt go to school today. I spent my whole morning playing restaurant city & watching tv & smsing. Lol. Hopeless! All i do is play play play. CRAP xD


Then i smsed weiteng & asked her if we got back any papers. She said i got B4 for Bio & 14/35 for emath. What the heck. When i heard the news, my mind totally like went blank?? O_o Damn it. I did study hard for my math.. How did i get that kind of results? Damn disappointed man! My tuition teacher sure kill me. My mom also.. Urgh!!!


Anyway last night i got a BIG BIG shock. Lol. ALEX CHIAAAAAAA!!!


Oh oh.. & i watched the movie UP. Was damn cute! LOVE IT!!! & i think it's really time for me to let go of him*. It's been long enough.. Since he* really doesnt feel anything, there's nothing i can do to make him* feel the same way back. Sigh...
Okay im staring at this screen blankly, cant think of what to continue with.. So i guess i shall end here then..


Byebyes. Takecares.


Lalalalalala.

Cheryl.

17.08.09(Monday)

*I hope i can do better & work on what i wan to do! Ganbatte!
** Really, i guess i'll let go of you. Its TIME..