Date : Monday, November 30, 2009
Time : 11/30/2009 03:50:00 AM
Title : childish, boring, ME.

Wow, it's been a while since i last really posted something about myself. URGH, was really pissed off in the previous post. However, the saying goes "Blood is thicker than water" There will never be hatred in a family. Afterall, those were words that came out of anger. Just wanna say IM SORRY MOM. Although she doesnt read my blog; or rather, she doesnt know i have a blog, i just wanna apologise. ( Scared lightning strike :X ).

Time flies... when you're having fun. Very quickly another month will pass, and christmas will come. New Year Day and back to school. Then back to exams, tests, exams, tests. Gotta start mugging before the school term begins, but i dont know how to keep myself off the laptop. URGH!!! ... I downloaded MAPLE a week ago & got hooked to it. OMG, cant believe im that childish. Heh :D Chiong-ed all the way & now at level25 in about a week? WOW. Chiongster eh.

Anyway, missed the fun times i had with my family in BeiJing.. Seriously, my family is filled with a bunch of jokers xD Took many pictures and videos, but lazy to have them uploaded~ Well, I've been slacking alot the previous week & mom's gonna start her action plan on me.. D: Holy heavens!
I've been sleeping at 3am/4am everyday these days.. I think im going bonkers! I really wanna lead a normal life, sleeping early & stuffs, but i cant T.T Boohoo~ Im gonna look for a job later on in the afternoon.. Hope i can find one.. Haiz. I really need the money! Going bankrupt soon. Friends' birthday in December & January, Christmas Gifts. I have no money! ...Mom's persuading me not to get a job & blah blah blah. On & on she goes. Sick & tired of her nagging~ :X

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I haven thought about him in ages.. Seriously, i dont miss him anymore. I no longer feel a single shit for him..
Woohoo~ I kept my promise!!! YAY :D I finally break free from this shit & i hope it will never happen again. I hope love is something nice & not something torturing..
Haiz, but there's a problem now... SE, confessed before. I dont know what to tell him. He actually gave up LA partly because i say im willing to open up my heart.. I feel bad. I myself dont even know if i will fall for him.. Im afraid I will break his heart when the time comes, but who can predict the future? He's been a really nice friend to me, willing to sacrifice & stuff... Perhaps he could be a better friend than a boyfriend, or perhaps, he gottta learn what 'love' really is and what it really means before he can be a good boyfriend. I believe what he has for me now, is just a crush & i doubt it will last. I know he will read this. So... SE, if you have found someone better than me, why dont you give me up? (: There are many many many MANY more ladies somewhere waiting to be your one true love, yeah? ^^

Another problem comes... This time HK & AB. URGH. HK, i finally managed to shake him off and AB comes. !!! It gets kinda irritaing :( when they both come harassing me with sms & calls. Eeeeeee~
The funny thing is that i dont feel the way i feel for HK & AB to SE. I dont know why... -confused.

It's getting late anyway, having a BIG headache.. Think i shall go to bed now...
Goodnight.
Cheryl.
30.11.09 (Monday)

** Im sorry SE. We'll never know the future. So... we shall see as the time moves on~ ^^

* Tuition, job hunting & games later~!  IMPORTANT: NO MORE, NOTHING MORE ABOUT THE PREVIOUSLY SO CALLED HIM FOREVER!!!

Date : Sunday, November 22, 2009
Time : 11/22/2009 11:48:00 PM
Title : I hate you, mom.

WHY THE HELL DO YOU ALWAYS THINK YOU ARE RIGHT? WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE? JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE MY MOTHER DOESNT MEAN YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO VENT YOUR ANGER ON ME WHEN YOU FEEL STRESSED UP. WHAT THE HECK AM I TO YOU? YOUR DAUGHTER OR JUST SOMETHING YOU USE TO VENT YOUR ANGER ON? HUH???? YOU COMMAND RESPECT FROM ME. BUT BLOODY HELL, DO YOU EVEN GIVE ME THE BASIC RESPECT I DESERVE?! JUST THINK! HAVE YOU EVER DONE YOUR DUTY AS A MOTHER? OTHER THAN GIVING ME MONEY MONEY AND JUST MONEY, HAVE YOU EVER GIVEN ME THE KIND OF FAMILY LOVE I WANT? WHAT'S THIS? JUST BECAUSE I WOKE UP AT 11AM TODAY, YOU IGNORE ME FOR THE WHOLE DAY AND THE ONLY WAY YOU COMMUNICATE WITH ME IS BY SHOUTING? WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS MAN? I KNOW YOU ARE BUSY TODAY. I TRIED MY BLOODY BEST TO MAKE YOU HAPPY. BUT WHAT DO I GET? HUH? SCOLDINGS FROM YOU. YOU ONLY KNOW HOW TO SCOLD SCOLD SCOLD. HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT OF MY FEELINGS? URGH!!! IM DAMN TIRED OF LIVING WITH YOU! HOW I WISH I HAVE THE FREAKING GUTS TO JUST LEAVE THIS BLOODY HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FINE! YOU WANT TO CONFISCATE ME LAPTOP? GO AHEAD. I KNOW WHERE TO FIND IT BITCH.

One last thing, I hate you.

Perhaps they're just words of anger, but this is all i wanna say to you today.

You were a total bitch.

Cheryl.
22.11.09 (Sunday)

** Will blog about my trip tomorrow or when im free-er. 

Date : Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Time : 11/04/2009 10:31:00 PM
Title : exhausted, hols yet cant enjoy.

Haiz.. it's the school hols yet i still have to go back to school for 2 weeks! URGH. T.T So tired, gotta wake up early every morning. Exhausted. I cant play till 4am++ like i used to in the past. Sadded :( I don wanna go to school..
There has been NP these 3 days.. I didnt attend all sessions. Had tuition today uh. It was okay. Heard next week got NP again. I cant attend. OMG. Wont be in Singapore. Going on a holiday for 8 days. Will be back only on the 18th.. After that on the19th going ice-skating with Jan & Weiteng :D

Mom still not home yet. Think she gotta work till 12am today. Bored.. Will be all alone at home again D: She's on leave from tomorrow. GOD. I have to come home early from tomorrow onwards. !!!!
It's been raining these few days, but never continuous rain. I just hope the rain would last for the whole day. On off on off, i feel super iritated.
Not sure why I keep getting irritated so easily. Perhaps i didnt have enough sleep for the past few days....
:(  Played computer till 2am everyday. Haiz. Think im gonna sleep early tonight. Guess i'll just end here then.

Goodnights. Byebyes. Takecares.

Cheryl.
04.11.09 (Wednesday)

** I dont know. But some how, i feel you are kinda getting overboard. You show no respect to your friend and i don like it. I still cant let you go, no matter what you have done T.T However, i think maybe the feeling is starting to fade, slowly.