Date : Thursday, July 30, 2009
Time : 7/30/2009 08:28:00 PM
Title : Changed Account.

Eeee.. I changed account because of some anonymous people.. Everytime i viewed it in school, something would definitely happen to it, causing me to change my URL over & over again. This is seriously dumb dumb. Wasted my time changing this & that. Gotta go now anyway. There'll be POP for the Sec4 cadets tomorrow.. Will be home rather late. Perhaps will be blogging at night or Saturday or Sunday or Monday.


Byebyes. Goodnight. Takecares.


Lalalalala.

Cheryl.

30.07.09 (Thursday)


** Time flies. So quickly, the end of the week is coming again. Which means, common test is nearing. & this time, it's for real. I wont be blogging for the next few days till maybe when im calmer or when common test is over. All the best to everyone & work hard!(:


* I see you everyday, i talk to you everyday. I care for you injuries, but you don care. I feel we're getting closer, but at times getting further. You really confuse me. I really care for you & i really hope to see more for us.. But, what's impossible could always be impossible T.T I still love you, really.

Date : Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Time : 7/28/2009 07:25:00 PM
Title : EEEEEK!

URGH. What's wrong with me? What's wrong with my blog? What's wrong with Restaurant City? What's wrong with them? What's wrong with her? What's wrong with...


ZZZ. WTF, why does everything seem to have gone wrong all at one go? Im feeling damn fucked up. Seriously, i tried not to use vulgarities, but i really cannot take it anymore.I dont know what's wrong with me. I've been eating a lot of late & getting lazier & lazier. Actually, i feel im behaving more & more like a pig. WTH! T.T My blog, is having some stupid problems. Apparently, everything bacame like in HTML mode. I cant adjust the font size & stuffs. Suck man! Restaurant City, it went under maintanence & i cant play a single heck of it. Damn! Them, who? Just them, they seemed to have changed a lot. They used to be quiet & demure. Now? They hang around alot with the popular people & they have gone all crazy. They dont seem their usual self anymore & i guess there's really some communication breakdown between us. They dont understand what im saying. Is it me? Or them? T.T Her, she used to be a close friend. I dont really know what happened exactly & all i know is that she is trying to get all my friends to be hers. I dont want to share friends with her. I dont want to share anything with her. I really want to cry now. Why is it that crying is the first thing i think of when i meet up with problems?


I tell people to solve their problems all the time, & not run away from it, but it's just so ironical. I myself dont even heed my advice i give to others. It's like so contradicting. I really want to solve all my problems, but i dont know where to start. Why cant friends just be friends & why cant the quiet remain quiet - like just who they used to be? It's better to have a friend than to have an enemy. True, i dislike her & her attitude now. Sometimes, it's just i want to open my bloody mouth to talk to her when i remembered we had quarrelled. Is it that im getting bitchy? I dont know if we should be friends again, but all i know is that im completely lost. I'm afraid history would repeat itself when we've become friends again. Sigh. It's so complicated. Besides, i dont want to lose face.


The fact is that i dislike her. So what's the point of being friends with someone when you know it's not gonna be a happy friendship? But is friendship more important or "face" more important? I hope people can understand my situations. BUT NO ONE SEEMS TO BE ABLE TO :( Sigh.

Anyway, I'm an NCO now in NPCC already & im taking the Sec1 squad. Was nervous for the first time. Hope not this friday. Got my new uniform. Everything cannot wear except the shoes-.- Eeee.. Sigh. Gonna go have a shower now then have dinner. Thinking of what to eat. So i guess i'll just end off here.


Goodbyes. Takecares.

Lalalalala:(

Cheryl.

28.07.09(Tuesday)


** Very fast gonna be National day & then common test, so gotta work hard now. Guess i wont be posting for the next few days or maybe even till after mid August.Need sometime to think through stuffs too. Sigh.


* I really cant let you go. As days go by, i realised it's getting harder & harder to let you go. I made you a promise. But im really sorry. This is one promise i have to break. I really just cant let it go. I think of you all the time, hoping that i can see you everyday, every hour, every minute & every second. I miss you.

Date : Saturday, July 25, 2009
Time : 7/25/2009 10:26:00 PM
Title : TOP FAVOURITE CURRENTLY

Well, this is my top favourite currently. It has great meaning in it. Juz wanna share. Its from the HongKong drama 肥田喜事. Title of song is 丑得漂亮. Great meaning, great song. I love it.










http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4G0OyjjGL14









Here's the lyrics:




胡：优美　才容易获取所爱


总要　和各界眼光比赛


长相　你叫我　怎麽改

自尊心也被人笑声掩盖

许：只怪　凡人用眼睛恋爱

身世　才沦为被爱的障碍

观众　眼界线　改不改

亦好好对待　叫人人意外

胡：谁明了你的标准

许：怎去量度幸福的轻重

胡：一千吨

许：这样重

胡：张开手

许：能用力地抱拥＃


人从来天生天养　然而难得你对我紧张

许：不必想你觅对像　丑样都这样漂亮

不必当世俗偶像　这世界谁亦有被爱的保障

合：蒙起这双眼冥想

胡：谁会让你恋上

　(许：忘记燃亮重量)



胡：总要　被旁人目光批斗

得我　行快镜遇上佳偶

所爱　我怕我　讲出口

会给婉拒换来我心伤透

许：关爱　仍然是你所专有总有

　情人明白你小宇宙

给我　抱满了　一双手

另一种美貌我全部接受

胡：谁明了你的标准

许：怎去量度幸福的轻重

胡：一千吨

许：这样重

胡：张开手

许：能用力地抱拥＃



胡：天生不配做偶像　都多得你愿见谅　（许：人人能爱上）


胡：天生不算做漂亮　都多得你愿见谅

彷佛整个闹市内　完全无人剩下我俩（许：人人能变心）

当丑小鸭被撇下　流亡然後又被领养

平头和品足嘴睑　原来无需要太过紧张

许：请不必背负重量　丑样都这样漂亮

心底可拼命发亮　这世界其实有万百种色相

合：旁观者怎会了解

胡：何以共我恋上（许：谁会是最理想）

胡：天生不算做漂亮　都多得你愿见谅

当丑小鸭被撇下　流亡然後又被领养

人从来天生天养　然而难得你对我紧张

许：不必想你觅对像　丑样都这样漂亮

不必当世俗偶像　这世界谁亦有被爱的保障

合：蒙起这双眼冥想

胡：谁会让你恋上 　(许：忘记燃亮重量)



Hope you guys like it(:

Date : Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Time : 7/22/2009 05:29:00 PM
Title : ECLIPSE

Today is 22.07.09. The day where people predicted the next eclipse would happen. I woke up as usual this morning, feeling cold & tired. The sky was darker than usual coz it was raining.


Went to school as usual, but kept wanting to sneeze but cant sneeze out. BTW, i had a 'quarrel kind of thing with my math tuition teacher. Now i juz feel so awkward to meet her. Im starting to hate tuition & the teacher. This sucks. Even fighting in sms. WTF. This made me feel damn shittish for the past few days. URGH. SUCKER! That bitch.


Well, don wanna talk abt it. Makes my blood boil. Let's talk about what happened today, in school. Morning, like had a cold war with QianYa for a while.. So ran to a seat near Munting there & played deal or no deal with SherHong, YanLin, ZhiYi & Munting-.- Haha. Seriously, it sounds stupid. I know. Lol. At least i can relax & enjoy myself a little. Time flew slower than usual & i was hoping physics would end faster. Is it because of the eclipse that time flew slower? Lol. Crap, yeah. Such a shame that Singapore is near the equator & caused us to miss alot of interesting stuff that happened in the universe xD


Then, school continued & blahblahblah. We were like released at 1.20pm coz of the 'O' levels listening comprehension. But I still had to leave school at 2.30pm, like the usual time coz of the NPCC meeting. BOO. At least it was worth it luh.. Heard with my very own ears that im a confirmed "SEARGENT" 3 stripes seh.. Taking sec1 squad on friday. BORING:\


Sigh, looking forward but yet so reluctant to take the squad. ZZZ. The problem with my tuition teacher makes me feel like killing myself. Im so tired, she doesnt get it. Thinks im lazy & blahblahblah. Yeah, true. Im lazy. But has she ever thought that she forces me too hard? Different people hav different abilities okay! STUPID BITCH :X


Haiz.. problems, problems & problems! He* talked to a girl today & they looked very... i dont know how to explain. But 1 thing for sure. The girl looks good. So, i guess im not comparable to her. Yes, i was jealous. I really cnt get him* out of my mind so easily.. BUT IM TRYING.


Shall stop here then. Nothing much to post about & that LAU JIA HUI keep asking me to speed up. Haha. Then i guess its...


Byebyes & takecares(:


Lalalalala.

Cheryl.

22.07.09 (Wednesday)


** I hate tuition more & more. Nothing much to comment. Just feeling rather weird these days. I guess i need someone to confide in.. but.. maybe not(:


* YES, i was jealous. I told you i need time coz its not easy to get over it. Im still missing you time & again.. :\

Date : Saturday, July 18, 2009
Time : 7/18/2009 02:07:00 PM
Title : Emo days - NOT PMS.

It's the weekend! Seriously hope i can get a good rest.. I dont know why, but im feeling a little tired & unhappy these few days. What i can confirm is that it is not PMS. Somehow, i just feel so tired. I havent been sleeping well. Every morning, i wake up at 6.30am & when i reach school, i would be yawning & yawning & having BIG HEADACHES. I doubt it is H1N1-.- coz im not having any fever. I just feel so tired.


These days, i sleep at my usual time--12am. It's different from the past. I used to switch off the lights before i fall asleep. Nowadays, i sleep before switching off the lights & i get up at 3am, just to switch them off. I would be very tired the next day. It has happened for 4 consecutive days & i dont know what is going on. Am i going crazy? Sigh.


I thought of him* last night, again. When can i let him* out of my mind? URGH. When i was thinking of him*, the song "Teardrops on my guitar" by Taylor Swift came into my mind.. Then, i fell asleep, without switching off the lights.. How much i want to sms him* "goodnight" everyday, but i think i shouldnt. Like i said, i dont wan this friendship with him* to turn sour.


Anyway, these days, i have a feeling Khiddee starts to detest me. I dont know why. He has treated me like a sister since Sec1. Now we're like strangers. Am i being too sensitive? Or is it someone is really carrying tales about me out there? WTF. If i were to guess, i think i know who those "Tale Carriers" are. Sometimes i wish i werent even in my current class. This sucks.

3E1 '09: NO UNITY, NO HOPE.

Backstabbers are EVERYWHERE. Hypocrites are here & there. There are some true buddies though. Nice people, i like(: Some lousy teachers, some good teachers. Some good 'clicks', some freaky 'clicks'. Whatever uh. Im tired about describing this class. Its so lovable, but yet so hatable at times.


Dont feel like blogging anymore. Tailbone hurts, mom's on the way home. So i guess, i'll sign off here(: Oh yeah, i went to the school dentist on THURSDAY & it felt great cleaning up my teeth!^^ Yeah!


Byebyes. Takecares.


Lalalalala.

Cheryl.

18.07.09 (Saturday)


** Think im watching Harry Potter tonight. Everyone seemed to have watched it. Now its MY TURN! Hope i no need an X-Ray for my tailbone..


* I just cant get you out of my mind, but i'll try & i'll keep my promise(: Thank you for not avoiding me anymore.. Will you even read this? ... I doubt so. This place is a bad memory for you.

Date : Thursday, July 16, 2009
Time : 7/16/2009 06:03:00 PM
Title : Im 15!

Well, i turned 15 yesterday. Happy birthday to me yeah? Early in the morning, i recevied birthday wishes from my friends. Thanks to them for that. I felt blessed. When i left home for school yesterday, the sky was dark. Clouds were thick. It felt as if it will rain soon. True enough, when i was about to reach school, it poured. I was drenched. What a day to start my birthday!-.-


When i reached school, i was wet. The moment i entered the class, people were like: "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" Haha(: Though not many wished, but im happy that it started my day^^ I was happy. Then, he* came in & started talking to me. He* wasnt avoiding me anymore! Did he* read my blog? I doubt so. Perhaps he* had decided to let the past go, like how i told him* to. I dont know. All i know is that i have had a Happy Birthday yesterday. Im glad.


Today, everything is back to normal. No more birthday till next year:( Will he* continue to talk to me or start to avoid me again? I dont know. But i just hope what i wish for can come true. I just dont want him* to ignore me anymore. I have nothing really much to say today. But there'll be a guest at my place today, so i gotta go pack up a little. Homeworks to be completed, housework to be done. So i guess i'll sign off here. Be back tomorrow or monday.


Byebyes. Takecares.


Lalalalala.

Cheryl.

16.07.09(Thursday)


**Harry Potter debuts today.. Guess im gonna watch it during the weekends. I feel tired these few days & my tailbone is aching again, seriously. It hurts. Hope it does get better on its own.


*I said i will forget you. But i need more time. After all, 3 years is not short. It is easy to fall for someone, but it isnt to let go. Now i face you, with awkwardness & hurt, but i have to pretend i dont feel a thing. I don wan our friendship to turn sour. It wont be easy, but i'll try. I still think of you now and then but im trying.. trying to keep my promise, ... to forget you, to give you up... Hurtful, but for you, your happiness, i think, its worthwhile:\

Date : Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Time : 7/14/2009 06:00:00 PM
Title : SAD.

URGH!!!!!!! Why must he* avoid me? I know it's my fault for confessing, i feel downright stupid!! Yeah, he* rejected me & what now? I have to put up a strong front & treat it like i do not know anything & pretend that nothing had happened. Sigh, he's* avoiding me. The more he* avoids me, the more hurt i feel. Why cant we just be friends? AHHH!! It's fate, i can accept the fact that we can NEVER EVER be together. I understand. It had all been my own wishful thinking. I know! Now all I want is just to be friends with him*, as in just like before. I promise, i'll try my very best to let him* go. It's gonna be tough, but since he's* happy with that, i'll let go, slowly, eventually..


He's* seen my blog & i know he's* NEVER gonna come back to visit it again. Coz the sight of all the crap i've written previously disgusts him* totally. Well, im sorry for that. I knew this would happen one day. On the day he* rejected me, i was out having dinner with my mum. I had to hold back my tears coz i didnt want my mom to probe. After dinner, i came home & went into my bedroom. I cried through the night. I was hurt, deeply hurt & it felt as if a knife just stabbed deep into my heart. 3 years.. I had been in Dreamland, wishing that miracles would happen. But now i know they dont exist.


I just want to care for him* as a friend now. What's so wrong about it? Why is he* rejecting my help as a friend? Today, i saw him* struggling with some math problem sums. I tried to help him,*, yet he* doesnt give a damn about what i've said. It's not his* fault, i know. The sight of me just detests him* so much. He* doesnt even want to talk to me. I seriously feel so so so SO hurt. Why cant we just be friends? Even if he* doesnt feel for me, cant we just talk like buddies?


Tomorrow is my birthday & the best present i would ever want for this year's birthday, is him* to talk to me, to stop ignoring me, to stop giving me a cold shoulder & play like in the past. I don expect any presents from him*. All i want is just what i've mentioned. I just want to have a HAPPY birthday-like how it is called.


Im gonna only post about him* today, nothing else. Coz i've nothing else to say, other than expressing my feelings through blogging. All i can say is, he's* a great guy. I hope one day, he* can find his* true love & that i will remain in his* heart forever AS A GOOD FRIEND, GOOD SISTER. For he'll* always remain in my heart as a GOOD FRIEND, GOOD BROTHER.


I promise, i'll let him go. AGAIN, slowly & eventually.


Lalalalala:(

Cheryl.

14.07.09 (Tuesday)


** Tomorrow is my birthday, just wish i can have a HAPPY one.


* I promise i'll let you go. But please, give me time. & i dont want u to avoid me anymore. I feel hurt when u do that to me. I just want to talk to you as a good friend & i want to help u as a good sister. Please stop giving me a cold shoulder. Im sorry in anyway. Im not sure if you would see this, but i hope.. i HOPE you will. :\

Date : Friday, July 10, 2009
Time : 7/10/2009 03:57:00 PM
Title : SeriousProblem

I got my new pair of specs yesterday. Trying to get used to the new degree. Im feeling god damn down these 2 days. Am i thinking too much? Seriously, i think i hav a problem. Why do i keep thinking abt something which i know will never ever happen? God, all this sucks. Im tired of all the nonsense im doing!


I tried hinting. I tried talking. I tried this & i tried that. Im trying darn hard, just to get his* attention on me, but none of these is working. Whenever i talk to him* about stuffs not relating to work, he* doesnt even bother to reply me anymore. I hate it, hate this kind of feeling! When will he* ever know how much i love him*?? Sigh, this is actually the first time i mentioned i love him*. I just wish to hav a heart to heart talk with him*. At least if he* tells me he* doesnt feel anything for me, i'll be less upset. Now he's* like keeping everything to himself*! Worst still, i think he's* trying to avoid me. He* sits with HER during lesson, he* chats with HER like how he* used to chat with me, he* borrows HER storybook & HE* DREAMS OF HER! Come on, i feel jealous, but obviously, he's* not mine. i cant control anything he* does. Does he* know how much my heart hurt when he* does all these things? Does he* know i hav been waiting for him for 3 years? NO! AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel im on the verge of breaking down now. I want to break into tears, but i feel stupid. I feel it's me. Blame me for not having that bloody courage to let him* now, blame me for not being good looking enough, blame me for being such a bitch, blame it all on me!! :'( Im really really very sad. All i can do is to sit there & watch him* become HERS. I dont want to give him* up, but if he* will be really be happy when he's* with HER, i guess i'll have to let him* go. We all know, this will happen someday. I just wish him* to be happy. If he's* happier that way, i will give up. But is he? I want him* to be happy. On the other hand, i cant bear to let him* go..


Im not in the mood to blog today. So many things happened recently.. & i just feel so TIRED. I just wish i can sleep forever and never wake up. Yeah, im crapping. I wont die that easily.


Whatever, let's talk about something else. Well, i'm starting to realise my "supernatural" abilities.. Lets see..

1. I can make my finger feel boneless.

2. I can lick my elbow.

3. I can shape my tongue the way other people cant.

4. I can make my thumb reach my wrist.

5. I can put my foot over my head.

All these are... nonsense i do when im alone at home. URGH! I really feel stupid saying all these nonsense now. Guess i'll just stop here & be back when im a little better.. I think i just need a break & some time to realise what he* really feels & what he* really thinks. This is all shit. I'll just sign off here.


Byebyes. Takecares.

Lalalalala :(

Cheryl.

10.07.09 (Friday)


** Just 5 more days to my birthday & i hope i can start to feel happy again before my birthday reaches.


* I may be thinking too much. I need to talk to you. Just you & me. Will you give me the chance? Hell, you wont even see this. How would you know i need to talk to you? Sigh.. Let's just hope that miracles do happen.

Date : Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Time : 7/08/2009 05:36:00 PM
Title : MUSIC FOR YOU!

Well, this is one of the songs he let me hear today.. Hope you guys enjoy. It's nice. From 东方之珠! The title of the song is 白云天. Although it's an old song, but i just love it. Perhaps, this could be.. OUR SONG? Lol. Nah..


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P8T1bV5Xd8I&feature=related


It's a great song! Enjoy! I think its a little muffled though.. Here are the lyrics:

白云天——郭晋安


Hello
My Baby
想起
温柔梦里的脸
离别的一天
那一年
因为爱
坚持等待
盼未来
命运领你回来
无仇不会成儿女？
如爱哪会抛弃？
对你说我抱怨难忘记你的爱道出了我的想念
放开一切不去想从前
放开双手轻抚我的脸
让你的笑温暖我心田
花开遍甜梦绵绵
Hello
My Baby
想起
温柔梦里的脸
离别的一天
那一年
因为爱
坚持等待
盼未来
命运领你回来
无仇不会成儿女？
如爱哪会抛弃？
对你说我抱怨难忘记你的爱道出了我的想念
放开一切不去想从前
放开双手轻抚我的脸
让你的笑温暖我心田
花开遍甜梦绵绵
Hello
My Baby
Hello 看见梦里的脸五月白云天
带笑的再相见

Sing along!(:

Date :
Time : 7/08/2009 04:45:00 PM
Title : HAPPY DAY!

Im feeling happy today! It's not because it rained, or anything. Whatever it is, i just feel so blessed with love today :D When im happy, i'll share my happiness with others. So during recess, i went to co-op to get sweets to chew in class. Charmaine & the princess wannabes were all there.. xD I got my sweet & they asked me to get Lakerol to share with them. I didnt do so.. Instead, i bought a pack of sweet for them to share. The funny thing is that they think im really good today & they go around telling everyone about it. I feel weird. Well, seriously it's all because im happy. I just wanna share my happiness. Anyway, it's just once in a while..


Im happy because me & him* were real close today. We talked to each other, played, sang, listened to music & somehow ate together. I really feel even more for him* now. Does he* really also feel the same way for me? Or is it just the sibling kind of likeness? During lesson time, we chatted about his* past & how many girls had liked him* before.. Some were not expected, & i was shocked to hear abt them. Haha. Then we stepped on each other's feet and played with the ruler, just like we did yesterday. It felt really great playing with him*. I was practically laughing and smiling the whole time in front of him*(: Then last 2 periods were free because Miss Tan was not there for Chemistry lesson. So a relief teacher who didnt care alot, came in & allowed us to do what we want to. As usual, i always stay put at my place when we're even allowed to move about. This time, instead of moving away, he* just stayed put at his* position. We sat really close & he* took out his* IPOD. He* listened to music while trying to imitate the person singing. He* came REAL close to me & sang something & i felt.. a little.. paiseh? Lol. Melanie & Munting were there before & they sort of like.. saw eveything? :x 15mins before lesson ended, he* passed me one piece of his earpiece & we sang together. Our heads were like less than 30cm away each other & i felt.. that my cheeks were a little warm? I didnt dare look at him* in the eyes, but i still glanced at him* once in a few moments(: Sometimes, our eyes interlocked & it felt... ELECTRIFYING! xD Haha. Then Jan & I went for lunch at KFC & he* & his* buddies were there too^^


I dont know what he* feels for me & i dare not ask. Just let things be the way it is now & im happy. He* made me feel more for him* now & i noe its gonna be difficult for me to give up when i really need to. Anyway, supposed to have tuition today but i felt a little unwell, so my mom cancelled tuition & i thank God for that coz i havent finished all of my tuition homework till now. Lol. I feel bad. So i guess tuition will be on Friday, yeah. Omg, Im feeling a little dizzy again. Guess i shall stop here. I may get my new spectacles tonight or tomorrow after school. YAY.


So.. Byebyes. Takecares.


Lalalalala.

Cheryl

08.07.09 (Wednesday)


** YEAH! Exactly one more week to my birthday!! & im so excited to get my new pair of spectacles soon!!! Haha. Charmaine & friends: I treated you guys the sweet coz im feeling happy. I hav no other motive yeah? & its just a pack of sweets, so no big deal afterall. Haha(:


* You, i still miss you as ever. You, are the perfect boy in my eyes. You, always make me happy. You, will never realise all this. The best birthday gift i'll ever get will be... from YOU. But i guess, i shall not hope so much.. I miss you.

Date : Monday, July 6, 2009
Time : 7/06/2009 05:43:00 PM
Title : MegaMonday

Yay! I have a good news & a bad news. Haha. Well, we shall come back to it later. Let's start off with what i have done today. Well, as planned, i carried out all my activities today like how i decribed it to be yesterday, except for some little changes(: Im feeling happy today, coz it's a rainy day! Wee..




This morning, i was supposed to wake up at 9am to rush on my tuition homework so i could pass it to my tuition teacher during tuition. Instead, i woke up at 1030am & it was already too late to get it done. I had to leave home for my grandma's house & Monika's house.. Sad right? I was like telling myself that i would be so dead for not completing my homework, or rather, not starting on it xD Let's just say.. I didnt even bother to start on it. I merely glanced through the questions & left it there. I was like thinking " Die then die luh, dont care le. " So i just left home & out i went.. Went to grandma's place & returned her her $50. I was supposed to meet Waileng & Munting at Boon Keng MRT at 12 noon. I remembered leaving my grandma's place at 1155am and i managed to be at the MRT station by 12pm sharp. I flew. We met & went to Monika's place together. Monika's place was huge.. Her parents and brother were all at home, but they were nice people^^ We completed the project in like 1 hr 30 mins or so.. After that, i left with Munting, since she was also going to ToaPayoh. We took bus 145. The bus moved damn SLOWLY. I felt dizzy till i received a msg from my tuition teacher saying " Tuition is cancelled, changed to Wednesday 4pm." I was like.. YAY! Haha. Im not going to die.. Heaven is on my side. xD & yup, that is the good news im going to announce. Well, as for the bad news, i will be presenting tomorrow for the Biology project. OMG. I gotta be prepared. I can predict no one would be even listening-.- Anyway, back to the topic. Munting said she wanted to come to my place.. It was horribly messy & i felt so ps to let her come. But i still let her come in the end. Thn she came to study with YeeHuey also. They studied with me playing lappy & watching TV. Haha. Cool. They just left, leaving me all alone at home again. Think im gonna shower after publishing this post :D




Like i said, im happy today.


1. Coz its raining.


2. He* initiated to msg me.


I was shocked when i received his* msg, coz he* hardly initiates a msg to me. He* asked me if i had done my geography homework. Nope, i haven't. So he* said why not he* do one chapter & i do the other & we shall exchange answers tomorrow. Of course, i gladly agreed. Anything for him*. Although it was only a few msges, like again, im satisfied. Im not one who is easily satisfied, but a little thing from him* really does make me happy. People may be trying to guess who he* is. & like i mentioned in the past, i will not let it out to anyone. However, quite a few people already knows about it. They promised not to let it out & yeah, i trust them. All of them have different opinions on how i should handle this. Some said i should give him* up since there is no point clinging on to him* since he* doesnt feel anything for me. Some told to me to persist. Well, i guess for now, i shall persist.




Ahh. The condition of my handphone is deteriorating day by day. Pekchek ): I slept at 4am last night & i doubt im gonna do so today. Im afraid to have PandaEyes :P What's for dinner? I dunno. Im not hungry.. Had a rather heavy lunch. Cant decide on what to eat. Haha. Guess that's all for now. I'll be back tomorrow, i guess. So.. i gtg shower, do my homework, slack, slack & slack. Tonight last episode of 东方之珠. Think its gonna be fantastic! Haha




Byebyes. Takecares.




Lalalalala


Cheryl.


06.07.09 (Monday)



** 9 more days to my birthday! I wonder how would it be like. Would it be like any other normal day? Would i be neglected? Would it be a good day? I cant tell the future yet(:



* You always make my day, i wonder how you would react when you know about all this. Im not sure if i would want this day to come. Will you start to avoid me & ruin our friendship? OR will you try to get to know me better & get closer? I really dont know. All i know is that, you're just so perfect in my eyes. Saw ur facebook pictures & yeah, you do look adorable in them(: I miss you, my perfect boy.

Date : Sunday, July 5, 2009
Time : 7/05/2009 11:40:00 PM
Title : It's Sunday today!

Slept at 4am last night.. That explains why im feeling a little tired today.. Was rushing through restaurant city but didnt manage to level up. Haha. Im going to level up soon, in probably another 15mins or so. Well, today is a wet & rainy day. Seriously feel sleepy.


Got out of bed at 11am.. Lazed around. Brushed teeth, sat on sofa, ate breakfast, watch tv. Guess im really starting to live like a pig-.- Watched spongebob for a while & then went for lunch at KFC. Had 2 piece chicken meal & was super duper full! After that, my mother brought me to the optical shop to choose my new spectacles. Got a full plastic, black frame glasses. Took my eyesight & found out that my astic has increased by 25. Wow. It would be ready for collection on Thursday. I cant wait! xD My mom paid $140 for it.. o.o After that, went to NTUC to buy groceries, blah blah blah... Then headed home. Took a shower & was asked to study, which obviously, i didnt again. Slacked slacked slacked. At 5.15pm, had Physics+Chemistry tuition. Almost fell asleep, but had to keep my eyes open. I was as good as a sleeping fish! :P Finally, ended at 7.15pm & i headed for Novena to meet my mum to eat xiao long bao for dinner. Woo. Dinner was damn fantastic!! Had ice cream for supper at TPY Swensen's. I ordered Pistachio almond flavoured ice cream but they were out of it.. So i ordered their NEW durian flavoured ice cream. Durian lovers seriously gotta try. It's made of real durian, neither too sweet nor too bland. Just right! Haha. Yummilicious! Then came home, watch tv&slacked&slacked&watched tv. Now playing Restaurant City & yeah, i just leveled up(: Now im at level 15, but still ranking 22nd in my friends list. ... :'(


Tomorrow im going to my ah mah's house to return her money i borrowed. $50.. Although she didnt rush me for it, i guess i still hav to pay her^^ At 12pm, will meet WaiLeng & Munting at Boon Keng MRT to go to Monika's place for Biology project.. By 3pm shld be home, 4pm math tuition. Shit. I havent done all my tuition homework & im so so so so so so DEAD. Shall get up at 9am to chiong.. Im a good girl, yes i am(: SELF PRAISE=NO PRAISE. :X


This morning, tried to find a topic to chat with him* via sms.. He* replied with another answer, no link to the question i asked.. He* said he* was fishing with his* buddies. & he* told me he* caught 2 fish. BRAVO! BRAVO! xD It was going to rain at that time & i told him* & buddies not to fish under the rain.. It was an excuse to care for ONLY him*. Haha. Well, i guess he's* asleep now, coz he* didnt reply to my msg.. Then i guess its time for me to LIGHTS OFF now too.. Feeling tired.. Dont wanna fall ill at this point in time :D So.. I gtg.


Byebyes. Takecares. Goodnight.


Lalalalala

Cheryl

Supposedly 05.07.09(Sunday)


** Just 10 more days to my birthday! Yay. Hope tmr will rain, coz I LOVE THE RAIN! :D


*You take care of urself yeah? & be happy everyday. Be it fishing, studying or playing... JUST BE HAPPY(: I miss you^^

Date :
Time : 7/05/2009 12:16:00 AM
Title : SecretSlackySaturday.

Oh yeah.. Just came back from Orchard Cineleisure.. So many people there at this hour!!! Lol. I watched Ice Age 3. It was damn funny.. The whole theatre was like filled with laughter & it was fully packed! Lol. OMG, i seriously love it xD


The whole day today is like super duper slacky.. My mom told me to wake up at 9am to study & obviously i didnt-.- I woke up at 10.30am & went to buy breakfast while she went to the gym early in the morning, at 8am. I bought zhui kueh as planned & got milk tea from koi cafe. Im going broke soon.. I shall start saving money & stop spending so much already. After i got home, i just watched tv till about 12pm-till my mom came home. I heard the sound of the keys when she was at the door & i switched off the tv & ran into my room & took out a book & pretended to be doing my work. LOL. I feel damn bad to lie but, come on, its a weekend.. I just need to rest before i get a nervous breakdown. ... Okay, i admit, im slacking too much but I really dont feel like studying anymore. Im tired. Haha. Anyway, she was home after that & said we shall go for lunch at 2pm. I said okay & went into my room. I sat on the floor, with a book on my knee, holding my spoilt phone, playing bowling game. The moment she came in, i threw my handphone aside & pretended to be reading. Funny, she din even suspect. Bleh. Well, after that we went for lunch. I ate noodles which made me rather full. Went home, asked to study again. What the.. So, i went into my room & started playing ThemePark Tycoon on my handphone xD Same procedure happened. Played till about 6pm & my mom came into my room & told me to change & get ready to go out. I did so & yay! i can go watch movie after a long slacky day already. Wee.. Had teppanyaki for dinner at Plaza Singapura before going for the movie at 9.30pm. Went to Centrepoint after dinner to shop awhile before going to the cinema. Again, the movie i watched is 3D. So cool, just like Monster VS Aliens. After the movie, came home, showered & here i am!


What a slacky day! I wonder what he* had done for the day & what is he* doing now.. I dare not ask, afraid tt he* might find me irritating. Omg. Speaking of the devil :x No.. angel xD He* just talked to me in facebook. Woo!! He* made my day again, like everytime. Although he* merely asked me to trade ingredients with him* in restaurant city, i still feel happy. Happy that he* does appear when i think of him SOMETIMES. Haha. Yeah, im in a better mood now. Thanks to him*(:


Yup, i can sleep well tonight, i guess. Hope i can dream of him*. I dreamt of him* before & i hope it happens again! xD Lol. Guess i'll go play games now.. GTG.


Lalalalala.

Cheryl.

04.07.09(Saturday)


** 11 more days to my birthday! & i think im gonna make my new pair of spectacles tmr. Hope i get it soon. It's been a long wait, with these whitey specs on. Haha^^


* Rest well, sorry i dont have the ingredients you want. When i get them, i'll trade with you, yeah? I think about you day & night & im hoping... I miss you, yeah.

Date : Saturday, July 4, 2009
Time : 7/04/2009 02:10:00 AM
Title : 2am & nothing better to do..

Well, i got the laptop for the night.. Thanks to the amath quiz thingy. Lol. I cnt get to sleep. Watching my restaurant city grow, S-L-O-W-L-Y. Finished my quiz & yeah, a sigh of relieve. I've almost completed all my holiday homeworks except for Geography & a bit of English. The Amath quiz has 50 ques. Man, i feel tired. So i decided to COPY. Gosh, i said i wanted to be a goood girl yeah? Haha. What's going on now? Lol.


Anyway, while doing, i was playing restaurant city.. Trading ingredients with Alvin Kan & Wilson Kuah continuosly. Lol. I guess we've gone crazy over this game. Addiction.. Lol. Hmm.. What should i do now? I feel super bored in my room alone, with the lights switched off & laptop switched on. The song "nobody" just keeps flashing in my mind. I feel like humming it again & again. I cnt stop o.o "I wanna nobody, nobody but you. I wanna nobody nobody but you. Lalalalalalalalala~~~" Zzz!!! I think im seriously bored bored bored :x


SIGH. My mother doesnt want to return me my w705. What's her problem? It is as if, if she confiscates it, i will do well for EVERYTHING-.-Ahh!!! The clicking of the mouse is making me drowsy. Let's see.. meanwhile i shall plan for tmr's meals.. Hmm.. Morning, i shall have... ... zhui kueh, with extra vege thing on top.. Lunch.. I shall have.. Noodles? Macdonalds? KFC? Booorinnngggg... & i shall have xiao long bao for dinner!!! Sudden craving.. Shucks. Im hungry now..


Well, guess if there's nothing to do, i shall go to sleep already..


Goodnight. Takecares. Byebyes.


Lalalalala.


Cheryl


04.07.09 (Saturday)


**Wont be posting later in the day & tomorrow. BTW, 11 more days to my BIRTHDAY!!^^


*I MISS YOU(:

Date : Friday, July 3, 2009
Time : 7/03/2009 07:42:00 PM
Title : FOR YOU. IM AFRAID THAT...

You're so near, yet i have to pretend. 我愿意等, 只怕你到头来说一声:"不" 就掉头走掉. Im really afraid. 3 years.. I've been carrying a torch for you, in the dark.. You sort of found out how i felt, but you never found out how much it really is. I really dont want you to leave my life.. Perhaps its just a part of life that people will feel this way.. When i grow up in future, i might find this stupid. But for now, you are really just the one that i really care for. I miss you.

Date :
Time : 7/03/2009 06:41:00 PM
Title : End of the first week of school..

Oh yeah, survived a week going to school. Studying&playing&talking.. Enjoyed myself for the first week^^ Will i be able to survive like that till the end of the year? Let's hope so, yeah. Btw, changed my URL again coz it's hard to remember it.. It was initially blackwhite-tales.blogspot.com.. People asked me abt my URL & i told them it was blacknwhite-tales.blogspot.com. Think i'm really suffering from Short Term Memory :x LOL.


Anyway, i feel a little pekchek today. Hell, i dropped my phone yesterday from great heights n it actually split into 2. !!! It was freaking stupid.. & i spent like half & hour fixing back the phone. Seriously, it wasted my time. The spring was like gone? & the phone cnt even slide properly. The worst thing is that today after recess, somehow, the phone blacked out. What the hell. I tried & tried & it finally was okay. It still black out constantly now.. Like everytime i pick it up, it just goes BLANK. Shit. I dont like.. Hope it's a good excuse to get back my w705.. Haha. But really, i didnt drop it on purpose.. So excited. Will i get it back my w705 today??^^ Praying hard, real hard-.-


Went to mac for lunch with melanie & weiteng & her friend.. Well, lets say.. i didnt really enjoy myself, but i was practically laughing the whole time? Haha. Sugar rush, sugar rush XD Then nxt to my table came the new actress who emerged from star search last year or last last year.. Cant rmb:x Her name is... is... er.. Koh Yah Hwee..许雅慧. Finally remembered! Thn when she left, she was standing outside mac & i waved at her.. She waved back, followed by a laugh. Haha. I laughed too. She was damn skinny lor.


Yeah, tt should be all for today.. He* msged me early in the morning, 7am, asking where i was.. I replied saying i was at interchange waiting for bus. Following tt, he* didnt reply anymore. So i reached school & saw him* there. He* doesnt really come tt early everyday. Haha. I asked him* why he* was there so early.. He* said he* wanted to chiong his* homework. Lol. Good for him*. & he* was actually paying attention for math. Rare opportunity to see that. Well, he* is popular to girls in a way.. So, its really hard for me to really get close to him*. But he* does let me noe when he* doesnt feel happy.. So at least im glad he* takes me as someone trustable, i guess..


Sigh. That's all for today i guess. So i gtg for dinner after 东方之珠.


Byebyes. Takecares. Goodnight.


Lalalalala.

Cheryl

03.07.09 (Friday)


** Guess wont be blogging over the weekend. My mum would be home. Gonna rush on my a math quiz after dinner le.. Haha. Anyway, 12 more days to MY birthday.^^


*I think of you everyday & i just want to talk to you so much. However, you dont feel the same.. So u will nvr feel like talking to me everyday.. Im willling to do anything for u, i just hope its all worthwhile. Miss you, yeah(:

Date : Thursday, July 2, 2009
Time : 7/02/2009 05:33:00 PM
Title : Been spammed. HELL YEAH.

Darn it. I've been spammed by some cowardly idiots. I dont understand why people are doing this. What's the point of spamming others? You dislike people, just keep it to urself. Nobody ever asked for ur comments. So to ppl who love to SPAM insults, criticisms, or whatever shit you can think of, YOU JOLLY WELL JUST F*CK OFF. How immature yeah?


Changed my URL, i dont wanna find trouble. Who knows? It may be one of the bitches or bastards in my school , or even people i noe, perhaps? I just feel so accused. I never said i was pretty and i dont recall offending anyone recently. What the heck man. The spammer said," you think you very pretty uhh?" The worst thing is he/she called me a bitch. Seriously, WHAT THE F*CK?!


No point getting upset over this shit anyway. I changed my URL & i pray hard it wont happen again. My conscience is clear & that's that. I mean, i dont deserve all this insults yeah? Stupid idiots. Ahh!!! Quit talking abt that. Change the topic.


My birthday is in 13 days time & im so looking forward to it! Dont forget my presents yeah?^^ Today had school as usual again. Took temperature,lessons,recess,took temperature,lessons,lunch,lessons.. Doesnt feel boring though. Been looking forward to studying these few days.. Lol. I just hope this will last. I gotta prove everyone who thinks im stupid WRONG! During lessons, people were like... Playing&talking&talking&playing. I guess i wasnt. Bleh:P Well, the guys in class are going crazy over pokemon game on handphone. They can hold their phone for like the whole day, trading pokemons & battling. GUYS!


Well, talking to him* everyday seems so.. great, yet so tiring. A moment he* talks, the next moment he's* no longer talking. But i do enjoy the times we get to chat:D I gotta go study now anw.. So, gtg i guess. Tmr gotta do Amath holiday assignment le. Dont wanna drag & yeah, monday is YOUTH DAY!^^


Byebyes. Takecares.


Lalalalala.

Cheryl.

02.07.09 (Thursday)


** Thanks to my junior-jiahui for helping me attack the spammers. Really appreciate it, although it din work. Sorry to make u get scolded bt them as well.


*Had fun talking. Hope u will get to see all these someday.. HAHA. Im behind you in whatever you do!

Date : Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Time : 7/01/2009 04:59:00 PM
Title : H1N1 hits Bendemeer Secondary!!!

Hoho. School reopened le &the least unexpected has happened! H1N1 virus hits my school. How great! Im scared. So scared to get the virus. I dont wanna die early. How i wish the world get rid of this this virus thingy ASAP! The school isn't closing. What's this? Dumb dumb. I dont like!


Anyway, first day of school was cool. Meeting all my friends after the long break felt great. Holidays.. slacking&playing&playing&slacking alone at home all day was BORINGGGG... First 4 periods on Monday were practically like, gone? We spent the time doing some admin stuffs, updating this&updating tt. Good also yeah, can slack slack^^ I like! Haha. The moment we entered the school, we were like being stopped all the time? Teachers kept asking "Have you been to any countries after 22nd june?" & "Are you having any cough or sore throat or fever symptoms?" -.-


As usual, was unable to pass up all the holiday homeworks. Wahahaha. Lazy to do. Finishing all soon though.. XD I good girl.. Not like YOU, YOU & YOU! Lol. Ps. Nothing better to say. Anyway, went out for lunch with Eugene Chay on Monday, coz it was Jeremy's birthday.. Me & Eugene had to walk the whole of J8 3times or so just to wait for TK & Jeremy.. Passed my lunch time by the time they came, &din feel like eating anymore. So i just got myself a drink n left. Crap. Really was a little unhappy coz I felt like so left out? Yeah, but cant blame them either. Guys r guys. So i noe now, nvr go out with guys when u're the only girl!


Ah well, I guess i messed my ass with shit again. I dont understand why i agreed. We dont even noe each other well yet & why the hell did i say "YES"? I thought i wasnt ready to say it again. Seriously, Im falling into it already. But, he* is back into my life. Holy shucks. I dont know what to do. Something i was ready to give up & accept another, is just so hard to give up. This is seriously hell man. He* made me hesitate. I just cant make myself give up now anymore. I dont know why. I hate this. I feel i disappointed the other party. i dunno how to put it to tt person n say "i've decided not to give up on him*, im sorry.". I dun wanna hurt the other party--innocent one. I cant hide it from the person, the person will definitely find out soon. I feel so bad. Now im stuck in between 2 & i gotta choose 1. I realised now, the kind of feeling i have for him*, is not just a crush. I guess it has gone further. Because of him*, I've let 2 guys down. Im not blaming him*, im just so confused. Will my efforts pay off? Liking him* for 3 years or mayb longer & one day, he* tells me straight in the face "NO". Im so afraid this would happen. I've prepared a long msg, not sure whether i shld send it out to the other party, im having mixed feelings. So, im trying to put it to the person slowly with short msges.. Ahhh!!! Im seriously going crazy. Why is it like tt? I dun wanna love anymore. Why does the word L.O.V.E even exist?! Im tired.


All i can do is apologise & get on with life. Im seriously apologetic to the other 2 guys i've hurt. Oh my god, since i have chosen to post this, it means tt he* really means alot & its hard to give up. He* will never understand how i feel. He* will never realise how much how much i've gone through because of him. I just pray hard, he will never say "NO"...


Its getting late. Supposed to do A math online holiday homework & i end up blogging. Hell. I guess i'll go study other subjects & do my A math tmr. Sigh. So i gtg.


Byebyes. Takecares.


Lalalalala.

Cheryl

01.07.09 (Wednesday)


*** Happy Birthday to Alvin Kan! Best wishes(:

** Really, a million apologies to the 2 guys i've hurt.

*YOU, I just cant give up.

P.S. Those who noe who it is, please do not mention anything about him on the tagboard. You guys know what i mean. Thanks^^